LAst day of 2008

It is the last day of 2008 and i feel sad about it because another year has passed and i see myself achieve nothing.

I actually wanted to write down what had happened in year 2008.

Today i am too lazy to write anything, to think anything, to plan anything..bye 2008

Review my 2008 resolution

I have recalled what i have written in year end 2007. It is the time to review what i have actually set for the new year resolution and what i have achieved now

为自己设下2008新年愿望：

1。工作更上一层楼。指标是：月份收入RMxx, 参与课程至少两次。
2。搭飞机出国旅游。至少一次（蛮喜欢在KLIA等上飞机的感觉）
3。可以更苗条，更美丽。体重少过50kg
4. 生活有改变 （怎样的改变还不知道，希望是更好，更开心的）

除了以上四点，当然希望，家人与男友平平安安，每个快快乐乐，身体健康，国泰民安，天气不爱这么热，货物不要涨那么多。：）

2008，来吧！我已做好准备了

I think i did not prepare well because i did achieve what i have set for myself:

1. 收入没有 RM xx, 只有参与课程一次 X
2. 有出国一次，到曼谷，但是没有去KLIA X
3. 潜在的体重是 50。7kg X
4. 生活有改变。，是更好吗？不是 X

我想，是时候反思一下了。

my leg is healing

It still looks very swollen and very bad condition before i see the chinese sengsei..

But i is really better now.

Christmas eve 2008

It was a really quiet night as nothing special happened to me. I finished my yoga class at 8pm then i i drove home. It was terrible jam and i have to use one hour to reach home. I did not have any special dinner instead i have two slices of bread with kaya.

I chatted with him in msn until both of us were tired. Then i went to bed, i remember the time exactly 12am.

Merry Christmas to all i love.

Disaster

From this practice:



Become this leg, It needs to cast for one week.

Shopping

The dresses i tried during the shopping at One Utama

Christmas

Another 5 days is the Christmas day. Nine out of ten people will get crazy buying stuff, clothes, shoes, etc regardless there are really celebrating this event.

I must say i love this day as i like to see the decoration in the shopping malls. However, i did not go to all the malls this year because i just feel lazy going alone. So i took some nice pictures from the malls i have been to recently.

One Utama

It looks like Hari Raya more than Christmas celebration.Last year was the best.

The Curve

Attract a lot of children and adult to to take photos. I think this deco is the most attractive one with a lot of animal and cartoon.

Cineleisure

Quite simple but nice. White Christmas

Pavillion

A simple tree at the entrance

KLCC

Big tree at the centre court

I sincerely wish everyone have a wonderful Christmas day!

如果。。

如果你是一棵圣诞树，我愿是树的吊灯，照亮你。。
如果你是一份圣诞礼物，我愿是那些彩带，让你缤纷色彩。。
如果你是一只火鸡，我愿是你得伴蝶，被人一起吃。。。
如果你是一个穷光蛋，我愿是你得的另一半，一生一世的陪着你。。

我们一定会回到开心的一天。。

哭了

今天不好了。。我竟然又哭了。开始时是因为觉得自己在教课时退步了，很觉得对不起学生。因为我的心不在，没好好地用心教。

好寂寞的一个人在一个熟悉的地方吃早餐，这次只有我一人，对着一杯美禄，和一包椰奖饭。吃完了还坐着看看一本买了很久的阴瑜伽书，才发现有好多资料都没看完。待了一会儿，就驾车离开了。

到了msq, 先看看mailbox有信吗，才上楼。马上上网，希望能与他谈天，因为今天我快要进入很低潮了。还好他又在，还没开会。天呀，他告诉我车子给拖走了，现在他爸爸再帮他和银行谈。我能感觉他又多么的无奈。我也是，他哭了，我也哭了。只是在不同时间，不同地点。

到了这个地步，我希望我们的婚礼是简单的，没压力的。因为我们都很累了。我不想别人再问我们的生活，也不想再去解析为什么会到今天的一日，因为我们也不知道。

我应该是很幸福的，因为我有一个很爱我的人，已分别人很羡慕的工作，一群爱我的家人。但是因为压力，我都没有这种感觉，反而觉得不知道该怎么得走下去。除了哭，我还能做什么？？

我再听着airsupply 的without you. 哭了。。

我只想抱抱他，和他说我希望我们会好好的。如果可以，我会选择回到一个能够令我很舒服的环境。可能不是这个地球，也不知道那里。

Just a bit sad

I was too busy over the weekend and no time to breath as well. Since he left i think i did not have proper rest. I was thinking when can i have good rest, put aside all things, and just rest with blank mind. I think i got to wait until January, hopefully.

We have so many question in our mind asking ourselves this and that. Guess this is not a good thing at all, why think too much, just do it. I was too emotion last night as i cried out because of many things. Things will slowly getting better, we just need to be patient. I came across a quote at Pelita Nasi Kandar when i was having lunch alone on Ssaturday. It goes like this : thing do not change, but we can change it. That sound so easy but in fact it is really hard.

I blame myself for not being strong enough and always under stress. I truly understand what suit me and what doesn't. However, i do not have choice right now. I am looking forward next year July, the life after that as well.

Over one week

It was over one week since he left for Bangkok. Up and down, crying, worries, fear made us so negative towards the next minutes came. What should we do beside being more aggressive and positive towards what we have been looking for. The only thing that keep me moving is, the big day on 4th July.

Being a main character in the movie is always my dream and i believe that day is just a movie to everyone who attends. So i want to look good, feel good, leave good memories to others, so they can remember this movie in their life. Nevertheless, married to someone you really love, is more than anything.

I don't know how we can go thru this month untill 9th Jan to meet each other in Bangkok. I hope that we are patient enough to count for another 35 days.

7th day without him - Monday

After talking to him last night thru skype, i knew how hard life being alone in oversea. When he asked me when can i stay together with him there plus the sms after one hour we hang up the phone, I knew he really miss me.

When we are new to one place, uncertain to many things, being fear to everything, this question show how afraid we are to many things and we hope we can have someone we are familiar with, to been thru it together. I have the same feeling when i was in NZ. I hope i can be there for him, to conmfort him, to give him support. He knew i am doing this all the time even though i am far apart because we are living in the same sky, same smillie moon facing to us.

anothers 38days...i will see him

6th day without him- Sunday

I love Sunday because everyone do not need to work and there can gather together. Today i have 2 replacement classes, so do not enjoy the day at first. I dragged myself to wake up in the morning for morning class. However, i was able to talk to him for a while before i left my house. It was so great to say good morning to him.

After the class i went back home to help my sister to move house. Around 3.30pm then i have to go for another class. It feel very tired because of the weather is very hot and i don't like there is a gap in between two classes for too long. It makes me very exhausted.

Night time having dinner with my family. He wasn't here so no one help me to wash dishes together. Sad.

5th day without him- Saturday

Normally my weekend is very relaxing, after morning class i am free to do anything. Sometimes we will go shopping, sometimes we will rest at home until dinner time then we will have dinner with family.

This Saturday i was really busy with replacement classes, not only one place but places scattered around klang valley. I was too tired when i have finished four classes and spended nearly 3 hours driving. And guess what, town was crazy jam.

While busy schedule keep me alert all the time, i do not have much time to think something negative or being alone. What was in my mine was counting the class i have finished and go home rest. That's why i have rejected to join my friend's hen's night party because i was too tired.

Night time i chat with him for more than 1 hour. I told him what have happened for the whole day and it seem that thing does not really change much because i used to do that. The feeling was so close to him when i was talking to him. I hope he will feel the same way.

4th day without him- Friday

I am busy in the morning for these two weeks, and almost everyday i have morning class until middle of December. At least i got something to do in the morning, to keep me fresh and steady. Steady? ya, emotionally, at least i am working as everyone does.

While driving toward uptown for class, i decided to call him, to give him a big muaks before he starts work. We chatted for a while before i arrived.

After the class i tapau my lunch, mixed rice which i think he gonna miss mixed rice in KL. I went back to MSQ, online, had lunch facing my computer. This is the way i always do if i am having meal alone. I searched some news about the situation in Bangkok while listening to my Ipod. The song Without you by Air suppply just make me crying. hmmmm...i am kind of emotion person i guess. How i wish i can go there with him.

If God allow, i don't want to separate with him anymore. It's very torturing.

3rd day without him - Thursday

Wake up early in the morning, around 7.30am, just because couldn"t sleep well after he left. Then i online to check whether he will be there. About 9am, he called me then we have some chat.

As usual after morning class, i went back home. Normally i will have lunch with him.Again, not today. Instead i tapau for my own and also for his mum. His mum was having eye operation yesterday, so i was thinking to visit her and also take my pants that i left in his room.

After i arrived, Guinness welcome me. Then i played around with him for a while. His mum asked me many questions, about his life, his job, more important his financial status. I can see her very sam tong about her son, in fact she cried. I tried to assure her he will be fine.I cannot tahan my tear also. Sigh. She is not suppose to cry as this is not good for her eyes. She needs to rest her eye.

She asked me whether i know about his financial stuff. I said i know a bit but not in details. She told me a figure that he owe after she check on the statements. She also worried about the legal action taken by Diamond Screen. I don't know what reaction should i give. The more she asked, the more she feel upset. She asked me to help him if i can.

After the conversation, i think i need a break. I need to recall what have we done until the situation become so bad. Before that i have never thought of the amount is so big. I have never thought of the nightmare is just started. I really hate him, why don't he talks to me honestly, why he still bought me the Tous, Celine, Gem Island package, why don't he reject Concorde hotel. WHY? I really don't need that stuff.

I hate myself that i cannot help him, i hate myself as a big spender also, i hate myself did not give him pressure. I hate i cant help.

We still have long way to go, if we don't face it now, it gonna be a big disaster in future.

I text his brother after that, i hope his brother can go home early to take care of his mother as she really needs support.

I don't feel good at all when i am writing this because we are such a failure. He is now with tonnes of burden working in a different country alone, i can feel how much pressure he has. I sincerely wish him, bless him to overcome this situation. And i wanted to let him know, he is not alone, he will got my support...more and more when he needed.

Raining again, just like my mood. I need to drive to work alone later.

Second day - First Wednesday

We used to spend time together on Wednesday morning, either cooking breakfast or having it at downstair's mamak. Today, i am totally on my own.

Waking up early to check whether he is online. Waited for an hour, but he did not turn up there. I went out early for morning class at Manulife. It was a tough class for me because i did not perform good last time . However, i prayed, i asked God to give me the confidence. I must say i have done better than last time.

After class, went to Mid Valley meet mook, jean and fanny. I arrived early, walk around there alone until mook called me then we sit down at Seed Cafe chit chatting.

After the gossip session, i went to New York for my eye treatment. I took nap during the session and i guess this is the good time for me to rest and relax. Right after the session, i left the place. Honestly, not quite enjoy and satisfied with the service. They did not give me what they promised me when i signed the course. However, i did not complain nor say much about it because i have no mood doing that.

I left mid valley at the time of 4.15pm. It was still early to my class, i just drove slowly. Reach at Les there at 5pm only. Raining heavily, so i sit in the car read the magazine from mook. Guess what , is a bridal mag :)

After class, went home dinner. I think Ryan's friends miss him a lot tonight because he used to play badmintion on Wednesday nite. Two of his friends called, asked about whether he is safe.

The first thing when i reach home was turn on my computer, to check whether he is online. I think this will be the fisrt thing i do everyday once i get back home, unless my brother is using the computer.

I have been waiting for 3 hours. He is still outside. I don't have a chance to talk to him. Very sad :( and i cried before sleep.

Miss him....

Without him - first Tueday

Ryan left today at 1.10pm from KLIA to Bangkok.

Everyday Tuesday, we are suppose to have breakfast at Taman Midah, the mamak next to RHB bank. Today the routine has changed. After my morning class at Sri Petaling, i went to his house, helping him to prepare his stuff. Together with the parents and brother, we have dim sum at connaught. After that, KLIA.

I hold on my tear, my breath, and my heart beat when he said goodbye. I know this was real tough for all of us, but i strongly believe this is a good thing for both of us.

After KLIA, i headed back to MSQ. The moment i open our master bed room door, the emotion stirked me. i couldn't stop my tear, I cried and stopped. I helped him to put back the shirt that he did not bring there back to the wardrobe. The moment i open the wardrobe door, i cried. We used to open the door together, my side and his side. So he will either let me open it first or don't let me open the wardrobe door. Most if the time, i win. Today, can do whatever i want. I squat dpwn and cried and cried.

I took nap after that until he text me saying that he has reached there safely.

During the class, just couldn't focus. Was thinking why he left me. Just a silly question :(

After class i used to text him, dinner with him, but not this tuesday, either next tuesday. I drove home, have dinner at home.

This is the first day he is not with me for 11 hours

Counting the day

Since the day i know we are going to separate apart for some period of time, i keep telling myself to be strong. I though i can make it, in fact it is real hard.

What's so hard? Being so used to depends on him, and afraid to be alone. I must admit that i am that kind of people who are scared to be alone. I am worried too, about his life over there, about our relationship. However, we have to face these.

No matter how hard it is, let have faith. The sadness, the tear are all worth it if we can over come this.

You are good>important date 31 oct 2008

No matter you can make it or not, i am still very proud of you.
We will find the way to work it out, whether you are here or far away

爱你。。

有你我感觉骄傲，请不要再埋怨了
不管生活多困难，幸福一定会找到
虽然前方很迷惘，我愿陪在你左右
坦诚相对一定要，紧紧拖手一起老

...

Life is always up and down like a roller coaster, and yet, I still ask why? Sometimes life is so difficult, but sometimes it can be so simple.

There are so many things happens recently and something strike to my mind when i was driving back home. When thing goes wrong,`we have many questions; who should we blame for?How should we react? What do we need to focus? Its seem all this thing is not important to me suddenly. I feel like calling all the people i care for, tell them how much i love them, how much i need them in my life.

Living in this world, we chase for everything, money, food, clothes...etc. Today, i am hunger for love. I am so afraid if one day i wake up in the morning, i am alone in this world. Yeah, i am nobody ,but i am somebody for someone.

I wish to make pepole around me happy all the times, i tried and i will try.

What's wrong with him?

The whole nation was very excited to watch the battle between Lee CW (Msia) and Lin D (China) in Badminton Single Final on TV at 8.30pm. He was the only hope for Msia to get at least a gold medal.

Being a gf of someone who was very supportive to watch this game, we were planned to watch this together at home, either his or mine place. We decided to watch at his place, so before the show started, i was hunger for a glass of 100plus, don't know why, may be the weather was hot. He was very kind to offer the help to buy for me. I also asked him to buy some chips or snack, so we can enjoy it while watching the game.

When he came back, he only brought back a bottle of 100plus. I asked about the chips, he said pringles is very expensive, so he did not buy it. I was a bit disappointed because i did not ask him to buy pringles, i was saying chips only, and he will always have the option to buy other cheaper one. That was alright with me without chips, he asked again what i want, i said a glass. He went to the kicthen and get a glass for me. After that, he was dark face. He raised his voice saying don't know what i want in front of two people. I feel very innocent and keep quiet because it wasn't my fault. Well i think if i was asking him to get the glass for me, that was too difficult, then next time i know i must get it for my own.

He apology after that. i know the game mean too much to him that he couldn't miss it. Anyway, i hope this thing wouldn't happen again. I forgave him.

My terrible week - DENGUE

I wouldn't forget 11st July 3.15am(fri), i was awake suddenly in the middle of the night. I feel very pain in my whole body and just couldn't sleep after that. I sat at the living room, waiting for the sun to rise. The pain was just killing me, i had fever and i feel no energy at all.


I still went for the Chinese massage because of the promised. The massage was killing me too, very pain. I remember i cried while i was driving back from PJ to Cheras. My phone was dry out of battery, no one i can talked to, beside crying alone and the driver next to my car staring at me.

Night, see doctor nearby my house. The doctor seem very unprofessional, only measure my body temperature without any blood pressure or pulse measured. I was in the consultation room not even 3 mins

The next day, i did not feel even better but worse. I went back to the same clinic again. This time there was another doctor which seem more caring. She gave me an injection to reduce my body heat and i feel better after that.

Sunday, i though i can fully recover. However, the whole night i couldn't sleep because i feel like vomitting. I did not eat much for the past few days, i threw out yellow water only.

Monday, i decided to give Chinese Tabib a try since i still feel very sick. The sensei said my stomach was very windy and asked me do not take rice at all. I followed the instruction.

Tuesday morning, i was really sick. Then i decided to go to Pantai Cheras Hospital to do blood test. Immediately, the doctor advised me to admit to the hospital.

After one day, my blood palete was still dropping, so have no choice have to stay there until my blood palete was up again. Beside resting and eating, i have nothing to do there. I was really losing weight a lot and feel very boring there.

The 3rd day, i was discharged at 6pm. Just cant wait to go home. These 3 days cost me RM1,754 :(

Disappointment

Tomorrow is the last day of my module two training. I have been very hardworking and fulfill in my life recently because of the flow training. Honestly, i was quite enjoying but a little bit of tiring.

We have talking a lot about the anusara practice in the class and seem some of the students are not quite agree with what the teacher had taught us. Personally i feel that "yoga" is something very personal and we will have different feeling towards this. It is always great that someone agree on what we thought. However, if they don't they should respect what we think.

I feel very disappointed with the environment where they are gossip around the class. I was trying to avoid this and accept open mindedly on whatever the teacher has taught me. If i find that is useful, then i must practice it, otherwise listen and forget.

That is really lack of Ahimsa in the class.

I feel better

I was little surprise when i got the msg,telling that he has quit from the job. What i have worried for since few weeks back was totally gone, and i find the relief. I guess it was been a hard time for him to make such a big decision. Whether it was a good or bad decision, he has make up his mind.

Sometimes we tend to question ourselves, whether we are doing the right things. Being a very emotional person, i always follow my heart and feeling. Is that a good thing? I don't know. Honestly, it is always two ways to look at something.

I choose to think or say something i feel better off.

changing

I've been missing my own blog for some times, I do not know what i am busy for recently but just couldn't find time to write something here.

I can feel what he feels recently coz i am really worried for what he is worrying too. That is a new challenge for us to overcome and i do not know whether myself can overcome this. I must say sometimes i am too rely on him, expect too many things from him, especially...i wish i know everything that happen to him, regardless big or small. But , guys sometimes just don't talk.

It will be a change, definitely. I presume it will be a good change, for both of us especially he told me that he wanted to have a solid future with me. That make me feel very secure and less worried. But, i don't know, i wish i can adapt to the change.

Tired day :(

I had a long day. Woke up at 6am, started my first class at 7.30am. It was a one to one class, so i wasn't really enjoy it. Then rushing to another class at 9am. It was a replacement class and i think the students feel ok about my teaching but they were still comparing my teaching skills with their existing teacher. Well i am really find with that and took the comments as something i can improve more.

Afternoon time went to police station to collect the report. Yes i was involved in a car accident on last Friday. :( Anyway, bad things always happen.

Another 2 classes in the afternoon. I feel a little dry recently. I feel like i have lost my teaching method, i was totally no direction and don't know which way to go. Probably i need some guidelines. I wish...i will be inspired.

people dream

I have few hours chatting with these two guys, Ryan and Ernest, was talking about something relate to our life. What do you want, what is your dream, where do you see yourself in 5 years. Most of the time,we got these questions during our interview. If we really think about this questions seriously, life is real complicated.

Let's talk about "dream". For some people, dream will never be achieved because it is a dream, unless Stephen Chow said" if you do not have dream, you are a corpse". According to my interpretation, dream is a desire/ a need. For me, dream is something set for long run, and i am not kind of person who think for what i want or how i become for the coming 10 or 20 years. Probably i am not a dreamer.

As we age, we will have different dream, and the dream in the past will not be the dream as now. That is definitely logic, if we are a kids age 10, we want to be a doctor to help people in future, that is a dream.What if when we come to age 20, we still do not know what photosynthesis means? Then the dream to become a doctor is just a dream. We might want to make another dream, probably to say you want to be so and so. What i am trying to say is, the word "dream", you said it, you mean it.

It really does not matter whether you have a dream or not. I do not believe people with dream will do better if they don't mean what they said. So, all the bosses, do not ask this question anymore. Do not give opportunity for those interviewer to say something which is not truthful from their heart. You want to hire a truthful staff or a dreamer is up to you.
Is good to have dream neither not...

I need a break

My yoga training is still going on until this friday. I am learning Anusara style this time and I realize the Anusara principles are very useful in my yoga teaching. Anusara means "flowing with Grace,” “going with the flow,” “following your heart.” I would like to talk more about the training, probably over the weekend if i can make it, because i need a break now.

Everyday i have to wake up at 6.40am, leaving at 7.15am, class start at 8am, finish at 4.30pm and normally i have class at 6pm. untill nite. The schedule is definitely too hectic for me, where i used to relax too much. :)

Just resting the mind tonight, and hopefully i will have better performance tomorrow.

救命

我浪费了我的人生，因为性格没收了我的才华
我不再是我，而我又是谁呢？
幸福感，成就感，安全感，有谁不在乎
我不想再是我，因为那份怀疑，又令我再问，我到底是谁？
天下无难事，只怕有心人
只怕我有心无力，还是一个借口呢？
我不能在沉没下去，因为它不会等我
求求你上帝，给我一个答案
好让我做个有用的儿女，社群服人。

4天3夜曼谷

趁搭airasia到曼谷。


这一次的旅行共有9人。

一个比我想像中好的旅行

31st March

Today is the last day of the first Quarter in a year. For most of the company, it is actually the time to review the sales achievement for the last three month. Its suddenly remind me to review myself as well.

What have i done? Am i going to the direction toward my new year resolution?

I think the answer is YES.

Whatever it is, i am going for a holiday for the next four days. But i will look into this seriously after my mad, crazy shopping.

A Test

From a Tibetan personality test:

Priorities in my life:
Horse (family) - Tiger (pride) - Sheep (love) - Cow (career) - Pig (money)

Description of:
Dog : my word is : companion -implies my personality
Cat : "manja"- personality of my partner
Rat: dirty - personality of my enemy
Coffee: caffeinated - interpret sex
Sea: huge - my life

Yellow : Mook - someone i will not forget
Orange : Jin - someone consider my true friend
Red : Ryan - someone that i really love
White: Seceond sister - my twin soul
Green : Han - someone that i will remember for the rest of my life

http://memoriter.net/flash/test.html

Another wedding

It was a busy weekend because of Ah Jin, one of my close friend, was married. I am at the age of, all the peer are planning for getting married. So if i meet some old friends, sure they will ask me when is my turn to tie the knot. Hmmm... simple answer, may be next year. It is hard to tell people we have no planning yet because of my age, 28. Well, not very old but just the right time. However, it is not the matter of age, it is the matter of timing, the readiness to build a home. I would not say i am not ready and i guess both of us are ready, just lack of action. May be we are still trying to figure out what kind of wedding ceremony we want.


Anyway, i had 4days event on Jin's wedding..From the bachelorette party, night before the wedding day (in Ipoh people call it "eat fried mee/mee hon") ,wedding dinner, and the wedding day where tea ceremony was held for the relative.

We had Karaoke session on the Hen's night at Neway, few days before she get married. We also presented the gift to her as our small little wishing to her marriage on that night. (a set of Tous's jewellery)


Friday night, we went to her house for dinner. Actually it was a gathering for all the Zhi Mui to talk about the itinerary on the wedding day. But we have done it a week ago.


Dinner night on the Saturday at Oversea Restaurant,PJ. I know Jin since primary school. So i know most of her friends, and i was busy to walk around to meet with some of the old friends. I also represented six of us "the closest friends" to give a short speech. It sound like this:

晶，你大个女了，今天终于嫁了
虽然是你的婚礼，但是我们也当了好像是我们的婚礼，很期待它的来临
我们很开心也很感动
虽然你变佐“郑太太”但是我们还会像以前一样，和你分享我们的一切一切
最后我们送上这首歌“姐妹”代表我们的一点心意。
祝你和阿tee辛福快乐

After that we sang a song. The second song was presented by a group of primary schoolmates. The song was"你最珍贵"

Sunday morning, we reached at Jin house around 8am. We prepared the the food for the bridegroom and all the best man & brothers. They came around 10.30am. As usual, we will not let them come in to get the bride, unless they have passed all what we required them to do. We are quite lenient this time due to the time constrain and some special order. So we did not prepare anything that are really hard to eat or do. Hence, it still run smooth.


All the Zhi Mui went to the bridegroom house, had lunch, took pictures. Jin "throw flower" to all the Zhi Mui, see who will catch it, then she will be the next to get married. I always see this ceremony in the movie, but have not experience it before. All of us were so exciting, and no one was so eager to get the flower. We stood very far, first round the flower was dropped on the floor and no one catch it. We then step one step forward, second round throwing, the flower fell to Mook's hand. We all congratulate her and she was so embarrassing.

无聊

只是觉得很无聊，吃饱饭等睡觉。。。

在无聊也只能做算数。。：
一辆巴士，有七个女生，每个女生有一个包包，每个包包有七只大猫，每只大猫有七只小猫，如果每只猫有四只脚，车上会要多少只脚？

好无聊。。

About the last 4 days

I was in Singapore for 3 days for the yin yoga course,so i landed there 1 day before. It's nothing new for me to travel alone and every time i did, it is another break through. Some people might think what is the big deal travel alone, but for me, it is a very big deal. Sometimes i need companion, i will feel upset when i am alone. I took the Transtar Coach to Singapore, First Class, meal and beverages provided.

I stayed in Fragrance Hostel, one of the backpacker near Bugis Junction. The hostel is clean and tidy, the only set back is very near to mosque, so do expect some noise during prayer time. I did not stay in the room during day time as my training started from 8am to 5pm, so i opted a 6 female dorm.

It was quite easy to look for a location in Singapore due to their highly convenience public transport. I took the MRT from Bugis station to Sommerset station, it only took me 15 mins and cost me 90 cents.

The training took me 3 days, from Monday to Wednesday. It was the same routine for the first 2 days, going to the training and coming back to the hostel. The last day i went to Orchard road, just to walked around.

I took the same coach back to KL. This time i took the premier class, definitely it wasn't as luxury as the first class. The only differences was it is 24 seats, so the seat is not very spaces compared to the first class, no blanket given, the LCD screen is smaller, no jasmine tea provided. But it was still a pleasant journey.

Funeral

My auntie passed away.During the time she was struggling with cancer disease, she gets to know about Jesus Christ, and accepted Him. Tonight, it is my first time attending Christian Funeral.

I am a new believer in Christianity, hence it takes me to know about death in Christianity. The ceremony was quiet and peaceful, we sang songs, prayed, 追思 （if i am not mistaken the name) - anyone can come forward to say about anything about the dead, her/his history, characters,etc.. i saw this in the movie, but tonight i witness it. Few people came forward said about her faithfulness to Jesus, and her determination to fight against the disease, i was so so touched by their words and my auntie's spirit towards Christianity. When a lady came forward saying she was from FGA(church i attended before), has known my auntie since last year August, it started drawing my attention to listen to her words. She was a bit aggressive, raised the tone of her voice, and cried. She made everybody feel uncomfortable especially for those non believer and also the new believer-i am talking about myself, i am not sure about the rest. I feel a bit nervous at that moment, i did not know what she will do, keep shouting until someone stop her? I have no idea, i just hope this would not happen, but it did. Finally, the Pastor stood up to stop her, and i believed she was a bit out of control, or too sad about her death.

I think this is the first time for my parents to know about Jesus, and i have no idea how to explain about the incident, because this really gives a bad impression to them in Christianity. Mum said she was frighten, believed this is a bit 邪。。。it really spoiled the impression.

情人节快乐。。。

二月十四，是西方情人节。祝所有人有情人终成归属。。有人说如果你的情人是爱你的，那每天都是情人节，何必在这一天让商家赚钱。我绝对赞成不花太多的钱，但是心意一定要有。。比如说，小小的晚餐，不需要高级的，也不可以大摆挡。。礼物就随意吧，有没有都可以。有一声诚恳地我爱你，就太浪漫了。。

意大利餐

大家情人节快乐。。没有情人的，也可以和家人，朋友庆祝的。：）

我的最爱。。tiramisu
小小心意-spa礼卷

一对小情人

I am so naive

You will get to know one better after sometimes, but i think this doesn't apply to me. Why say so?Because i did not know the one who is so close to me was struggling, even 3 days 2 night being together, every minute, every seconds, i cant feel it. I am just a failure being a girl friend. May be i wasn't observant enough, to care how he feels everyday. Or i could say he was looking at something under the magnifying glass. Or may be i couldn't judge like this as sometimes i was a jerk too.

Thanks for the greatest power of blogging. I get to know his feeling through his blog，and i believe this was the last source for him to express himself. He wasn't really talking much about this because he was so afraid to push me to aside, where decision have to be made. Perhaps, if he knows me more, he would know things were getting better as life goes on. I am seeing some effort he puts in this relationship, but I do not know how much time he needs to cure the wound,may be a short period of time, may be its take a long time, or may be its will never be cured.

He knows how i feel today, as i am being a stupid and jealous girlfriend, reflecting what he has done to me. hmmm...i am sorry too

除夕夜

今天是年三十晚，每年的今天我的呆在家帮忙做家务。为什么每年都是这样呢？又不忍心不帮，只好不出门。妈妈喜欢布置家，我也帮忙粘那些美美的东西。太多了吧，浪费钱。。今年没买好多东西，有几件新衣就好了，而且还不贵的呢！等待吃团园饭。

Pulau Pinang

I went to Penang with Ryan for Melissa Wedding's dinner. This gave me the opportunity to visit Penang again since i was very young. We drove to Penang on Wilayah Territory's Day,the traffic wasn't very smooth as we were forced to broke the rules,driving in the emergency lane. We stopped over at Bidor, for a plate of Duck Mee, but i did not take it, as my skin is quite sensitive to duck meat. I just had a mixed rice which cost me RM4.30, not cheap too.

We continued the journey to Penang, until we reached the Penang Bridge, we were very excited. It was jam again on the bridge, so we have to slow down the speed.

We arrived at 3.30pm, checked in at Seri Malaysia Hotel, and i guess it's a 3 star hotel only. Anyway, we just need a shelter, to take bath and rest. After half an hour rest, we went to Tokong Ular, of course to see snake, but we were able to see some others animal like rabbits, monkeys, giant tortoise.Worth to visit :) RM3 per entry with Mykad

龟兔赛跑

At nite, we had our dinner at Gurney Drive, Char kuey Tiew, Bubur Cha Cha, Muar Chi, rojak...hmmmm..all yummy..and i guess my stomach was complaining about the things i ate. After that we went back to hotel to rest as driving for4 hours was very exhausted, and we have more places to go for the next day.

2nd day, we had breakfast at the hotel as they did provide 2 pax breakfast, so why spend more. After breakfast we continued the journey to Penang Hill, Kek Lok Tsi, and also the famous Asam Laksa. Not very enjoying at Penang Hill, as that place required to walk far form one place to another, especially the sun was heating up above my head, that was a big no no to me. We did not spend much time there then went Kek Lok Tsi. Well the reason i went to this place was to feed the tortoise. I still remember those day when i was very very young, my parents bring me there. Just some memory fleshed back in my mind.


Dinner at Penang Fisherman Wharf,where Melissa and Vincent had their wedding dinner. We went earlier, 6.30pm as stated in the invitation card. So we were wondered dinner should start very punctual, penang ma.. but we were wrong. we were more early than the bride & the bridegroom, and also their family members. So we just hang around there, until the VIP came.Thing wasn't as smooth as they planned, because they came late. so free seating, we just sat at the table near where we were standing, together with some of Melissa's colleague. I was her ex colleague, a litte sweet girl sat behind me in the office, used to drink Vitagen (White color), taught me Excel (She is just good in that), taught me English (She cant speaks mandarin or cantonese) chit chatting with me (Using intranet email), and we were laugh out loud after reading some funny things in the email. I must say she was my good buddy during my time in SBB. My first job after graduation.


3rd day, after breakfast we checked out, went back to KL. We stopped over at Ipoh, bought pomeloes, had lunch. Arrived at Kl around 4pm.

Celebration for my father's 60 Birthday!

一个令我有感觉的晚上

驾着车子回家，看见月亮特别大，真得好大，好亮。它把我们都照亮了,我在想,为什么它那么的美丽,令我不能把眼睛离开它,也不能专注的驾车,好危险.好危险!我愿像它一样，每天照亮着爱我的你们。虽然我是那么的渺小，但在你们的心目中是那么的重要。我的存在不能改变世界，愿我的存在能给你们欢乐。

新的窝

坐落在damansara perdana.

努力了好几个月，我们终于可以搬进去了。虽然花了不少钱，但是很值得。我们把budget写好，然后就跟着list,买东西。有的超过预先的钱，那是很正常吧。屋子里还蛮空的，我们还需要很多东西，在等待吧。。

人生用最多的地方-床

一个太可爱的吃饭桌子-烛光晚餐

如果你也像我一样，就要有一个新的窝，记得。。。凡是不要勉强，能力以为，尊重对方意见，那爱情的结晶品就会很有价值。