Without him - first Tueday

Ryan left today at 1.10pm from KLIA to Bangkok.

Everyday Tuesday, we are suppose to have breakfast at Taman Midah, the mamak next to RHB bank. Today the routine has changed. After my morning class at Sri Petaling, i went to his house, helping him to prepare his stuff. Together with the parents and brother, we have dim sum at connaught. After that, KLIA.

I hold on my tear, my breath, and my heart beat when he said goodbye. I know this was real tough for all of us, but i strongly believe this is a good thing for both of us.

After KLIA, i headed back to MSQ. The moment i open our master bed room door, the emotion stirked me. i couldn't stop my tear, I cried and stopped. I helped him to put back the shirt that he did not bring there back to the wardrobe. The moment i open the wardrobe door, i cried. We used to open the door together, my side and his side. So he will either let me open it first or don't let me open the wardrobe door. Most if the time, i win. Today, can do whatever i want. I squat dpwn and cried and cried.

I took nap after that until he text me saying that he has reached there safely.

During the class, just couldn't focus. Was thinking why he left me. Just a silly question :(

After class i used to text him, dinner with him, but not this tuesday, either next tuesday. I drove home, have dinner at home.

This is the first day he is not with me for 11 hours