Disappointment

Tomorrow is the last day of my module two training. I have been very hardworking and fulfill in my life recently because of the flow training. Honestly, i was quite enjoying but a little bit of tiring.

We have talking a lot about the anusara practice in the class and seem some of the students are not quite agree with what the teacher had taught us. Personally i feel that "yoga" is something very personal and we will have different feeling towards this. It is always great that someone agree on what we thought. However, if they don't they should respect what we think.

I feel very disappointed with the environment where they are gossip around the class. I was trying to avoid this and accept open mindedly on whatever the teacher has taught me. If i find that is useful, then i must practice it, otherwise listen and forget.

That is really lack of Ahimsa in the class.

I feel better

I was little surprise when i got the msg,telling that he has quit from the job. What i have worried for since few weeks back was totally gone, and i find the relief. I guess it was been a hard time for him to make such a big decision. Whether it was a good or bad decision, he has make up his mind.

Sometimes we tend to question ourselves, whether we are doing the right things. Being a very emotional person, i always follow my heart and feeling. Is that a good thing? I don't know. Honestly, it is always two ways to look at something.

I choose to think or say something i feel better off.

changing

I've been missing my own blog for some times, I do not know what i am busy for recently but just couldn't find time to write something here.

I can feel what he feels recently coz i am really worried for what he is worrying too. That is a new challenge for us to overcome and i do not know whether myself can overcome this. I must say sometimes i am too rely on him, expect too many things from him, especially...i wish i know everything that happen to him, regardless big or small. But , guys sometimes just don't talk.

It will be a change, definitely. I presume it will be a good change, for both of us especially he told me that he wanted to have a solid future with me. That make me feel very secure and less worried. But, i don't know, i wish i can adapt to the change.

Tired day :(

I had a long day. Woke up at 6am, started my first class at 7.30am. It was a one to one class, so i wasn't really enjoy it. Then rushing to another class at 9am. It was a replacement class and i think the students feel ok about my teaching but they were still comparing my teaching skills with their existing teacher. Well i am really find with that and took the comments as something i can improve more.

Afternoon time went to police station to collect the report. Yes i was involved in a car accident on last Friday. :( Anyway, bad things always happen.

Another 2 classes in the afternoon. I feel a little dry recently. I feel like i have lost my teaching method, i was totally no direction and don't know which way to go. Probably i need some guidelines. I wish...i will be inspired.

people dream

I have few hours chatting with these two guys, Ryan and Ernest, was talking about something relate to our life. What do you want, what is your dream, where do you see yourself in 5 years. Most of the time,we got these questions during our interview. If we really think about this questions seriously, life is real complicated.

Let's talk about "dream". For some people, dream will never be achieved because it is a dream, unless Stephen Chow said" if you do not have dream, you are a corpse". According to my interpretation, dream is a desire/ a need. For me, dream is something set for long run, and i am not kind of person who think for what i want or how i become for the coming 10 or 20 years. Probably i am not a dreamer.

As we age, we will have different dream, and the dream in the past will not be the dream as now. That is definitely logic, if we are a kids age 10, we want to be a doctor to help people in future, that is a dream.What if when we come to age 20, we still do not know what photosynthesis means? Then the dream to become a doctor is just a dream. We might want to make another dream, probably to say you want to be so and so. What i am trying to say is, the word "dream", you said it, you mean it.

It really does not matter whether you have a dream or not. I do not believe people with dream will do better if they don't mean what they said. So, all the bosses, do not ask this question anymore. Do not give opportunity for those interviewer to say something which is not truthful from their heart. You want to hire a truthful staff or a dreamer is up to you.
Is good to have dream neither not...